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I need my jail cell to ease the pain and suffering. This isn’t freedom having to be stuck with not making ends meet anymore. I wish i could be arrested and secured for my own good. Life has no purpose in a free world.. Criminals have everything in comparison and personally ill enjoy when I can get back on my ankle monitoring system again.

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So everyday I go to bed scared what my future will bring and where I will end up. I look at various parts and pieces of my life and I know that if I don’t go to Germany to experience a lifetime of full lock up in a bondage prison that I will miss out truly in what I need. I know I need to legally move out of the United States as my health can’t take much anymore and I don’t want to die in a country who wants nothing to do with me. Living somewhere where I have no one who would come to my funeral when I’m dead it’s not the life I want to live I want to experience a life where I’m isolated from the world but still able to have those that care.

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Been wearing ankle monitor for over a week and two failed devices. It gets annoying to even try to fake where I really should be which is jail. I cringe at the freedoms I’m stuck with. Even this can’t complete me though it does help me feel better about who I am to really become. If only Germany was in the playing cards.

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Im beginning to try many methods to work on improving my health. Personally massage and acupuncture are doing wonders to improving health. Personally need to go back up for a snowboarding session as there nothing much else to do. Lost a job cause of things going wrong.

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Something just running through my mind as the windstorm picks up and then I can’t sleep. I really want the best thing for me and trying to form my own company