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I am ready to never be free ever again. I wish that even if things don’t work between who i am with for next couple weeks doesn’t work that i will never have access to my cock ever again it be the worst punishment but a blessing to never coming out of this belt until i end up in jail. Seems like i can’t openly communicae my frustration and the fact Is that no matter how much i want this belt of i wish someone would leave on forever. I can’t take being free anymore. Saddest thing is that no one understands me at all and plays mind games with me. I just wish one day i can afford a custom chastity belt. I will be out of it Thursday and be further depressed because i really want to never get out of it again.

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I feel so lost and so confused and struggling to cope with problems of being free. I know that without being owned long-term and secured long term I can’t handle all this pain anymore. Every night I’m climbing on top of my prison mattress praying for the ability to be taken to jail and live life in lockdown24/7. One great thing is that wearing this metal belt makes me more complacent and know freedom is bad. I can’t live without a prison cell to be locked into and i can’t feel safe half the time rarest secured to a point.

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Finally I’m able to experience having some form of physical restraint for the next couple weeks and I wish I owned the belt I am wearing. Two weeks locked in heavy chastity belt is some form of prison in itself. Sometimes I wish there was never a way out of this Carrara belt ever again as why should I ever feel freedom again. I need to be locked up 24/7/365 as thats my purpose in life. I’m in one sense screwed as now I am going to be in it for a couple weeks. I want to be in one forever cuffed gagged and hooded for life if I could.

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I am at the end of my rope and am struggling with all these issues with financial debt that I can’t even rid in bankruptcy. I owe 316 bucks back to the state of Washington Unemployment all because of an asshole that thought it be fun to mess with someone on a disability and for there kink lifestyle. I wish i could be secured safe in jail away from these people who tell me to kill myself and make fun me and my ambitions of confinement.