I am tired of waking up all alone and hurting daily. I want to feel having my happiness back. I was meant to be living in Europe, not in the United States. I go to work and come home almost every day and cry myself to pieces. I wish I was special and had the opportunity to move to Finland. I wish I could make someone happy as I am just useless. I wish was put into jail for the rest of my life at least then I can be happy and feel safe and confined. I want to be controlled and have a structured environment. I wish I was able to live inside a small room with concrete surrounding me and my toilet in the same room with a metal bed and a thin pad upon it. I wish one day my dreams would become a reality. I wish was able to afford to be locked up on an gps ankle monitor as well but being poor sucks.