What is it like to be secured and objectified like the gimps and owned slaves out there? I am tired of being disabled and so poor that I can not get to have even bondage for an experience. To be rejected by the BDSM community for the same things that so called people are into. They just judge my PTSD or for the lack of income I make and never give me a fair chance to get to know what I am capable of. I wish that the sadistic masters would just allow it to be owned and watch how well it adapts. No one is perfect of the get go. You take the object and you train it there is no reason why I can not be of use to someone in a bondage situation. Denying someone the ability to have that life of confinement is just plain wrong. I did not ask to be born in this world, nor did I ask to be in this amount of pain I have to deal with from my abusive childhood.
You could never handle the life I have been given and you should not be so judgmental. One does not just get over fucking C-PTSD (Complex post-traumatic stress disorder). If you do not know what that is go look it up and learn something because this is not a thing you can just switch off. I find that so many people are arrogant when it comes to the facts that it is something a person can always manage to get rid of or cope with when the help that one needs is consistently denied. Try going to the doctors office and being denied a psychiatrist because your an adult and they really do not care for your mental health. In Finland it is a disaster when it comes to this. The discrimination for employment puts even more pressure on someone to try and heal from a disease and lets not add on top the severe medication resistant depression. Then you add the ADHD and then the anxiety and you are left with something that most therapists can not handle all at once. Add in the fact I have asked for alternative treatments but Finland is so far away from the usage of Ketamine to treat severe cases of depression and PTSD. To force someone to go to the black market is rather messed up way of approaching the problem. A lot of the doctors in Finland do not have a clue or are way to afraid to try alternatives when things are not working.
I have lived with extreme pain as well already and all I want the most is to be able to be safe and secured in bondage. But apparently this is a huge problem with the BDSM community. Last time I checked most people have problems and are not by any means any better than anyone else. The fact that the community that should understand the importance of bondage for mental health is absurd. So because I want to be tied up then you can try to blame me for all my problems. What a royal fuck you to those who do not want to help. I am fighting to want to live every single day and something as simple as putting me in bondage doesn’t cost you anything. The gear is already there so just use me for crying out loud. Why must I be rejected when I am fully capable of handling bondage? Can someone lock me up or better yet since you do not wish to do such just get me put into prison.
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